i feel challenged

1. after the church's matching program last month, i feel so much more aware of how loose i am with money sometimes. not that i spend excessively, but i feel like the Lord's taught me a lot about being more purposeful with money. for example, i am always afraid that we're going to starve to death, so i keep TONS of food in the fridge, 40% of which inevitably goes bad. a half container of yogurt, a head of broccoli, that kind of stuff. lately though, i've been working hard at finishing all the food, using, recreating, mix-n-matching foods to make new foods and it's been quite revolutionary. we actually don't need as big of a food budget as i thought.

2. hideyo and i have come up with names for two states of mind we (and i really mean i, i suppose) default to regularly. to give credit where credit is due, we thank claire (my sister's british soulmate) for the idea: judgey mcjudgerton and hatey mchaterson. not people i necessarily want to be, so i guess the Lord and i will be having lots of conversations about that.

3. i can't get to places very fast. if i walked slow before (and people used to make fun of me for taking 20 years to get to dwinelle hall in college) ... you ain't seen nothing yet.

4. getting ready for baby. being freaked out by baby. being freaked out about the amount of baby stuff/gear/crap we already have. and trying to not let it take over the house.

5. 23 days to go ...