5 weeks to the day.

dean is probably one of the closest things i have to a childhood friend, barring dr. janet reno pooty pootwell. and it was so great seeing him get married on saturday. we have had a host of good memories since the 8th grade, and it was a privilege to share his special day with him.

as a general rule, i'm almost always emotional at weddings. you can ask kachiu -- she's sat next to me a number of times where i'm hiccuping and dry-sobbing through the ceremony. and this time was no different. i think it was more meaningful because it hits closer to home with every wedding i'm at -- and this was one of my oldest friends. the other thing that made this wedding special for me was that when i heard the vows being spoken, i suddenly realized that the next time i'd hear them spoken again would be when i say them myself.

total wtf reaction. i mean really. is it that time already? and it is. i can hardly believe it. my stuff's getting packed since i'm divorcing karena and jeniebops on friday (thanks for helping me pack ladies! i can't do it without you!), and in five weeks from now, my life is totally going to get the changeup. and it's exciting, and reedikerous scary, and everything in between. i can hardly wait, but i'm totally developing a nervous eye twitch. melinda says it's totally normal bride stuff, and i think she's right. but ... i don't know. i've just got a huge knot of anticipation inside me all the time. perchance i explode on you, please be gracious to me. i'm just a bride-to-be. and ... sorry. i'll buy you a beer later.

and really, can i say "TOTALLY" any more?