omg, i am in the crankiest mood. the heat makes me crazy ... AND dark.

my women's group (namely jieun and janice) told me that they appreciated my sensitivity. many thanks to janice, i am learning to embrace the fact that i am squishy and my feelings can be easily hurt and that that is okay!

EXCEPT on days like today. we're meeting this week for professional development at school -- mostly working on our houses, implementing our new, enlarged teams (welcome frosh teachers!) and dealing with the fact that one of our houses -- constantinople -- is going by the wayside. a lot of our time has been spent discussing how we can implement the constantinople kids into the remaining three houses.

so tonight, we had a mtg with the constantinople kids/parents, and explained what was going on and had kids fill out a survey stating which friends they'd like to travel with and to rank the houses they'd like to be in: kyoto, florence, or marrakech (mine!). i was pretty impressed with the way the kids/parents were taking it ... really gracious and i'm excited to get some new blood infused into my house. i'm looking forward to inheriting 25 constantinople kids.

what i didn't count on was whether or not the kids would want us. given the fact that our house has the crappiest reputation (marrakech: the hardass house), i can't imagine why i was surprised ... but i was. across the board, all the kids ranked my house in third. and for some reason, i am really hurt by this. allie, our new frosh social studies teacher, is much more pragmatic about it (ie, they'll deal with it) but while i know my house has a lot of things to work on ... it's still my house! we've worked really hard to woo our parents and our kids, and i feel like we don't have a whole lot to show for it. and i'm really sad that other kids don't want anything to do with us. it's like one of those situations where i am allowed to cap on my kids and our house reputation, but no one else is. and i'm a little worried about those 25 kids who are inevitably going to be sorted into my house and come thinking that i'm going to eat them.

sad face.