seri's people are more clever about cramming more flavor into pink grapefruit mentos than my people. i just want to get that out there.

okay, i just had to say that when i am discouraged, my GOD encourages me. i mean, i am by no means faithful ... and even right now, i'm not at all sure if i'm growing or if i'm just dead in the water (this is probably an indication that i am not growing) ... but when i am down, He does indeed lift me up.

case in point: it's kind of been a down week about the job thing. a month or so back, i had my great putsch (a la euro history) and got all these applications out and all this stuff. i was on a roll, no doubt. but after a lacksadaisical lone interview, silence. even the school i didn't want emailed me to say "see ya sucker. we hired someone else already." it was sad. bordering on depression, even if i have hope that He has a plan for me. i was certain that i didn't get the job i interviewed for, and where were all the other interviews demanding my brilliant self?

not so brilliant.

nothing like a little humility to gain some perspective. anyhoo ... i'm in the dumps this week, esp after i found out they've hired someone else in my place here at eastside, but ... He does not give me more than i can handle. He really doesn't. and i had one informal interview last night ... which was good, i think. she was supernice and we had a nice chat. and now this school and the one i interviewed at before ... they both want to come see me teach. and while it's not a job offer ... it is progress. i guess my only worry (as though i should have any) is what my class is going to look like when they come. i've had literally no feedback all year ... it's very possible that i've degenerated into this horrible, traditional, step-on-the-kids kind of teacher. it could be. it might be. so ... i guess i'm praying more then.

He is good. so very good.